A life? Who has time for one of those??
I can not believe that I am finishing up the 5th week of school. It has flown by. I am so tired and so stressed that it's ridiculous but I love it. I'm taking an English/Grammar class and an Information Technology class. They have GOT to be the MOST boring thing EVER. But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do!! :)
As for work I still LOVE it. I am having so much fun and learning so many things about working with children. I can honestly say I think this is one thing that I will be doing for the rest of my life. Working with kids is great, granted the class I work in has quite a few trouble makers. One is having MAJOR family issues, one is hyperactive but the parents refuse to do anything about it, on is just a PAIN in the ass no matter what is going on and the other is a follower so he does what all the bad kids are doing. It makes the day really long but the other kids are great so the day is fun.
I leave my house at around 7 am and get to work at 8, then I work till 5 get home around 615 - 630, then make dinner, give baths and get the kids in bed. Then at around 10 (the kids are still usually awake in the dark in their room) I start homework that has to be in by midnight. I go to sleep at midnight and then wake up at 545 once again the next day. I have no idea what its like to have a break. No idea what it is like to have 5 minutes to just relax. When I am not doing homework, dinner or baths I am chasing the kids trying to get them to help me clean the MASSIVE mess they made while I was making dinner or I’m doing laundry or cleaning. I would do anything to send my kids somewhere for 2 hours so I can take a nap. Oh and weekends? Those are GREAT! I sleep in till about 8 and then get up do laundry, clean house, and run errands. I go grocery shopping and to Target or Wal-Mart mostly. I can not spend longer than 20 minutes in a store at any given time without both kids going crazy that a) they want something and I say no so it sends them into a HUGE temper tantrum or b) they run around like wild hyenas and I get the dirtiest looks in the world. Ok I am a single mom of two VERY VERY VERY active kids. They do not have a babysitter and they do not go to a daycare where I can leave them there a little while longer so I can do these things. I am forced to take them with me. So I either leave Marcello (who’s 2) in the cart screaming at the top of lungs and making this strange noise with his throat so it sounds like I’m choking him or I let him run wild. Ummmm since I have NO patience with the screaming I let him run wild. Yes he goes in the racks and hides and yes he pulls things down but you know what? He’s a kid. Get the fuck over it. Next time you are in the store and see kids running all over don’t get mad. Think of how the mother feels. Well ok some moms don’t care that their kids run all over but some moms like myself are sooooo tired its easier on our sanity to let them have a little fun. Believe me it wont kill you if a kid is running down the isle.
With all that said I think I need to learn to have a little more patience too. My kids are driving me insane as we speak. Francesca is a whiner, like the QUEEN of whining and I HATE whiners... and Marcello, well he’s 2. That should explain everything. Its his way RIGHT now or the screaming way. And no they don’t get their way all the time... only sometimes. I can not have two spoiled kids. But I cant have two unhappy kids either. So all in all I am doing what I can for myself and my two kids. I know some people think oh well and that’s fine... but honestly I am so proud of myself for doing everything I am... I'm happy and my kids are happy and that is ALL that matters to me....
As for work I still LOVE it. I am having so much fun and learning so many things about working with children. I can honestly say I think this is one thing that I will be doing for the rest of my life. Working with kids is great, granted the class I work in has quite a few trouble makers. One is having MAJOR family issues, one is hyperactive but the parents refuse to do anything about it, on is just a PAIN in the ass no matter what is going on and the other is a follower so he does what all the bad kids are doing. It makes the day really long but the other kids are great so the day is fun.
I leave my house at around 7 am and get to work at 8, then I work till 5 get home around 615 - 630, then make dinner, give baths and get the kids in bed. Then at around 10 (the kids are still usually awake in the dark in their room) I start homework that has to be in by midnight. I go to sleep at midnight and then wake up at 545 once again the next day. I have no idea what its like to have a break. No idea what it is like to have 5 minutes to just relax. When I am not doing homework, dinner or baths I am chasing the kids trying to get them to help me clean the MASSIVE mess they made while I was making dinner or I’m doing laundry or cleaning. I would do anything to send my kids somewhere for 2 hours so I can take a nap. Oh and weekends? Those are GREAT! I sleep in till about 8 and then get up do laundry, clean house, and run errands. I go grocery shopping and to Target or Wal-Mart mostly. I can not spend longer than 20 minutes in a store at any given time without both kids going crazy that a) they want something and I say no so it sends them into a HUGE temper tantrum or b) they run around like wild hyenas and I get the dirtiest looks in the world. Ok I am a single mom of two VERY VERY VERY active kids. They do not have a babysitter and they do not go to a daycare where I can leave them there a little while longer so I can do these things. I am forced to take them with me. So I either leave Marcello (who’s 2) in the cart screaming at the top of lungs and making this strange noise with his throat so it sounds like I’m choking him or I let him run wild. Ummmm since I have NO patience with the screaming I let him run wild. Yes he goes in the racks and hides and yes he pulls things down but you know what? He’s a kid. Get the fuck over it. Next time you are in the store and see kids running all over don’t get mad. Think of how the mother feels. Well ok some moms don’t care that their kids run all over but some moms like myself are sooooo tired its easier on our sanity to let them have a little fun. Believe me it wont kill you if a kid is running down the isle.
With all that said I think I need to learn to have a little more patience too. My kids are driving me insane as we speak. Francesca is a whiner, like the QUEEN of whining and I HATE whiners... and Marcello, well he’s 2. That should explain everything. Its his way RIGHT now or the screaming way. And no they don’t get their way all the time... only sometimes. I can not have two spoiled kids. But I cant have two unhappy kids either. So all in all I am doing what I can for myself and my two kids. I know some people think oh well and that’s fine... but honestly I am so proud of myself for doing everything I am... I'm happy and my kids are happy and that is ALL that matters to me....
posted by The Black Widow at 8:25 PM
1 Comments:
So was that you and the 2 screaming kids in Target last week?
J/K!! ;) And screw the people with the dirty looks, Sometimes there just jealous because they don't have what you have. I mean It's not like your kids are going to be small forever. Like you said There kids!! Hang in there!!
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