A pretty face with a stone cold blackened heart....
Ican't even begin to tell you how sick I am of pretending that my life is wonderful now... That I am happy with all that Ive chosen. No Im not happy that I am 1000 miles away from everything Ive ever known. No, I am not happy that I am no longer 10 miles from Nordstroms with the MAC counter so perfectly set at the entrance. These are the choices I have made and I AM happy I made them.
It's a whole new world to me. One I never imagined myself in. If 10 years ago someone would have said my life was gonna be like this I would laughed... and ran the other direction. When I was 18 I was so full of life and energy I dont know how anyone kept up with me. I was always wanting to go out and have fun. I didnt have a care in the world about anything. I think I was happy then. Things have happened that made me change my views on life. I was so fast to love and so fast to give everyone a chance. I've learned my lesson... the hard way, of course. I no longer want to love, I no will no longer give chances, I will no longer put up with the shit that people like to dish out. For now, if you want to be a permanent fixture in my life you live by my rules... It's my turn now.
Theres a person inside me that wants to come out. The person that laughs all the time and is happy with her life. A person that has a heart full of love and laughter. The real me. Very few people know the real me... very few meaning one if any. It wont be an easy task but if anyone chooses to attempt and succeeds at filling my heart with happiness will have my heart forever.... But as for now I am just a pretty face with a blackened heart of stone.
It's a whole new world to me. One I never imagined myself in. If 10 years ago someone would have said my life was gonna be like this I would laughed... and ran the other direction. When I was 18 I was so full of life and energy I dont know how anyone kept up with me. I was always wanting to go out and have fun. I didnt have a care in the world about anything. I think I was happy then. Things have happened that made me change my views on life. I was so fast to love and so fast to give everyone a chance. I've learned my lesson... the hard way, of course. I no longer want to love, I no will no longer give chances, I will no longer put up with the shit that people like to dish out. For now, if you want to be a permanent fixture in my life you live by my rules... It's my turn now.
Theres a person inside me that wants to come out. The person that laughs all the time and is happy with her life. A person that has a heart full of love and laughter. The real me. Very few people know the real me... very few meaning one if any. It wont be an easy task but if anyone chooses to attempt and succeeds at filling my heart with happiness will have my heart forever.... But as for now I am just a pretty face with a blackened heart of stone.
posted by The Black Widow at 12:22 AM
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