I can finally breathe...
Well, I talked to my husband last night. I called to bitch him out on why he spent 28 dollars at the movie theater and 12 dollars at the ice cream shop. Yes, sounds petty I know. I called to find out who he is going out with. He's the worst liar in the world.
A week before I decided to pack my things and leave, my husband got a phone call from a girl that he knew before he met me. He says she was just an old friend. I had met her before and she's not the greatest person. Granted I've only met her a hand full of times from what I've heard out of my husbands mouth she is NOT a good person. She would do anyone and anything to get drugs. Including my husband. Yes they slept together one time (supposably once, and from what he says, before him and I even met). Well I found out that she had called a few weeks prior to that phone call and his mom answered. He wasn't home. But she did give him the message, without me knowing. And of course he called her back, again without me knowing. I found all this out when I was there when she called this time. I was furious. First my mother in law can go to hell for not telling the bitch that he's married (the girl knew this cause I told her a LONG time ago when she had called) Second my husband can drop dead for calling her back. My husband has always been a liar, and not a good one at that. So, when I called about the movies I wanted to know who he went with. I know it wasn't his daughter as he said it was. One adult and one child ticket does NOT cost 28 bucks. I may be dumb but I'm not stupid.
I then asked my husband if he has called or made appointments to get help for his drinking problem. He got mad and said that he couldn't talk. Of course he can't. Someone might really find out how big of a fuck up he is. He proceeded to tell me that he's been too busy. Too busy paying bills, working, finding out about his daughters daycare for the summer... and apparently going to the movies and buying overly priced ice cream and pizza. As he was telling me this it was a huge slap in the face. I couldn't help the tears that suddenly started falling down my face. Was I not that important to him. Are his two beautiful children not that important?
I was so angry, more so at myself than him. How can I be so stupid as to want to try to make it work? I've given what I can. I've done what I can. I will no longer hold my breath hoping that things change and get better. At the moment he said he was too busy I realized that I have to move on. I can no longer waste my time. I will be 26 in August. I don't have time to mess around with a fuck up like him. I deserve so much better... The funny thing - I KNOW this. I sat up for about 2 hours after that late night phone call thinking of how much he has hurt me. Another slap in the face. Getting slapped in the face seems to be a normal occurrence these days.
I can't wait for the rest of life to begin. Especially now that I can finally breathe again....
A week before I decided to pack my things and leave, my husband got a phone call from a girl that he knew before he met me. He says she was just an old friend. I had met her before and she's not the greatest person. Granted I've only met her a hand full of times from what I've heard out of my husbands mouth she is NOT a good person. She would do anyone and anything to get drugs. Including my husband. Yes they slept together one time (supposably once, and from what he says, before him and I even met). Well I found out that she had called a few weeks prior to that phone call and his mom answered. He wasn't home. But she did give him the message, without me knowing. And of course he called her back, again without me knowing. I found all this out when I was there when she called this time. I was furious. First my mother in law can go to hell for not telling the bitch that he's married (the girl knew this cause I told her a LONG time ago when she had called) Second my husband can drop dead for calling her back. My husband has always been a liar, and not a good one at that. So, when I called about the movies I wanted to know who he went with. I know it wasn't his daughter as he said it was. One adult and one child ticket does NOT cost 28 bucks. I may be dumb but I'm not stupid.
I then asked my husband if he has called or made appointments to get help for his drinking problem. He got mad and said that he couldn't talk. Of course he can't. Someone might really find out how big of a fuck up he is. He proceeded to tell me that he's been too busy. Too busy paying bills, working, finding out about his daughters daycare for the summer... and apparently going to the movies and buying overly priced ice cream and pizza. As he was telling me this it was a huge slap in the face. I couldn't help the tears that suddenly started falling down my face. Was I not that important to him. Are his two beautiful children not that important?
I was so angry, more so at myself than him. How can I be so stupid as to want to try to make it work? I've given what I can. I've done what I can. I will no longer hold my breath hoping that things change and get better. At the moment he said he was too busy I realized that I have to move on. I can no longer waste my time. I will be 26 in August. I don't have time to mess around with a fuck up like him. I deserve so much better... The funny thing - I KNOW this. I sat up for about 2 hours after that late night phone call thinking of how much he has hurt me. Another slap in the face. Getting slapped in the face seems to be a normal occurrence these days.
I can't wait for the rest of life to begin. Especially now that I can finally breathe again....
posted by The Black Widow at 10:09 AM
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