How unfair... No one wipes MY ass....
Ok, today there is good news! Last week I got hired at Safeway as a cashier. The pay wasn't that good and neither were the benefits, though it was a job. Well today I went in for orientation and the guy said I could work for Starbucks (inside of Safeway) instead if I wanted to. The pay is 10 cents more an hour LOL and the benefits start after 30 days. And I wont have to pay union fees cause its not union! Yay!!! Ummm hello? More money, and not have to pay dues!! I'm all over it!
When I came home from there my daughter opened the front door all excited and told me that Marcello (21 months) had cut his finger with a knife. I'm pissed. My uncle was watching them so I wanted to know what happened. He said that Marcello got in the drawer and grabbed the knives and put one in his mouth. He carefully took it out and then tried to get the other one out of his hand. He was holding the blade. And when he tried to pry his fingers off of it Marcello squeezed harder cause hi to cut himself. Now yes I am pissed that he was able to get to the knives but I guess accidents happen. Though I don't like the fact that he wasn't watching him and he got them in the first place.
I was talking to a friend (luv ya sweetie!) and she said that I should try to find daycare cause I can't come home to dead kids LOL Well, she's totally right. My cousins will be watching them and the oldest is 18. I thought wow I guess I should look into it. My friend told me that my husband should pay half. HA! He is having his parents pay for half of his daughters daycare for the summer cause he's too chicken shit to get child support from his daughters mom. Well hey, I thought it would be nice if his parents paid for half of these kids' daycare too!! Oh no wait! They never do for these kids what they do for that other one. This has been an ever going argument with Ray and I.
When I found out I was pregnant with Francesca Ray didn't tell his family about her, I didn't either so whatever... After Francesca was born they NEVER NEVER NEVER called to see how I was or how their grand-daughter was. Never did a damn thing. Granted they did drive from Whittier to Barstow all the time to pick up their other grand-daughter. They always talked to her and always saw her. The first time they even saw Francesca she was a little over 2 years old. How pathetic. From what I was told ray told them that I didn't want Francesca to see them and that I kept Francesca away from everyone. That is such bullshit. I would call Ray all the time to see if they (or he) wanted to see her but of course he would tell me that they didn't want to see her and he didn't either. Wow... quality people huh?
They paid for Rays daughter to play soccer and were gonna pay for her to go to Catholic school. The would do anything for her. They bought her clothes from GAP cause GOD for-fucking-bid any kid born into that family wear anything but name brand clothes. They bought her tons of stuff. Now remind you I am NOT a materialistic person (regardless of what anyone thinks - I'm not) but I think its really unfair to do that kinda crap. And of course the love and affection is the same way. Well, I'm lying. Francesca gets left out a lot. Marcello is everything to them... After that first grand-child of course. He's the first boy! He means something.
It bothers me a lot but I have let it go cause I know that my two kids get more love and affection from me to account for a million people. My children know that their mom loves thema nd will do anything to make sure they have the best life possible. Rays other kids mom really is into drugs, she's been in and out of jail, she's had numerous pregnancies (although only one child), she's been beat, she's been molested, she's just plain psycho and that poor child will learn that sooner or later. I know my children don't have to. Although they do share the same messed up alcoholic father. Wow... that sucks... for him.
So needless to say I KNOW that they wont pay for half or any of these kids' daycare. That's ok though. I don't need or want them to. All I want is them out of my life. I am an adult and I don't need my ass wiped like my husband does. Apparently he still hasn't learned to do it on his own.
So, yay! I have a job, my kids, and lots of family and friends that support me... And damn what do you know... I can wipe my own ass too!
When I came home from there my daughter opened the front door all excited and told me that Marcello (21 months) had cut his finger with a knife. I'm pissed. My uncle was watching them so I wanted to know what happened. He said that Marcello got in the drawer and grabbed the knives and put one in his mouth. He carefully took it out and then tried to get the other one out of his hand. He was holding the blade. And when he tried to pry his fingers off of it Marcello squeezed harder cause hi to cut himself. Now yes I am pissed that he was able to get to the knives but I guess accidents happen. Though I don't like the fact that he wasn't watching him and he got them in the first place.
I was talking to a friend (luv ya sweetie!) and she said that I should try to find daycare cause I can't come home to dead kids LOL Well, she's totally right. My cousins will be watching them and the oldest is 18. I thought wow I guess I should look into it. My friend told me that my husband should pay half. HA! He is having his parents pay for half of his daughters daycare for the summer cause he's too chicken shit to get child support from his daughters mom. Well hey, I thought it would be nice if his parents paid for half of these kids' daycare too!! Oh no wait! They never do for these kids what they do for that other one. This has been an ever going argument with Ray and I.
When I found out I was pregnant with Francesca Ray didn't tell his family about her, I didn't either so whatever... After Francesca was born they NEVER NEVER NEVER called to see how I was or how their grand-daughter was. Never did a damn thing. Granted they did drive from Whittier to Barstow all the time to pick up their other grand-daughter. They always talked to her and always saw her. The first time they even saw Francesca she was a little over 2 years old. How pathetic. From what I was told ray told them that I didn't want Francesca to see them and that I kept Francesca away from everyone. That is such bullshit. I would call Ray all the time to see if they (or he) wanted to see her but of course he would tell me that they didn't want to see her and he didn't either. Wow... quality people huh?
They paid for Rays daughter to play soccer and were gonna pay for her to go to Catholic school. The would do anything for her. They bought her clothes from GAP cause GOD for-fucking-bid any kid born into that family wear anything but name brand clothes. They bought her tons of stuff. Now remind you I am NOT a materialistic person (regardless of what anyone thinks - I'm not) but I think its really unfair to do that kinda crap. And of course the love and affection is the same way. Well, I'm lying. Francesca gets left out a lot. Marcello is everything to them... After that first grand-child of course. He's the first boy! He means something.
It bothers me a lot but I have let it go cause I know that my two kids get more love and affection from me to account for a million people. My children know that their mom loves thema nd will do anything to make sure they have the best life possible. Rays other kids mom really is into drugs, she's been in and out of jail, she's had numerous pregnancies (although only one child), she's been beat, she's been molested, she's just plain psycho and that poor child will learn that sooner or later. I know my children don't have to. Although they do share the same messed up alcoholic father. Wow... that sucks... for him.
So needless to say I KNOW that they wont pay for half or any of these kids' daycare. That's ok though. I don't need or want them to. All I want is them out of my life. I am an adult and I don't need my ass wiped like my husband does. Apparently he still hasn't learned to do it on his own.
So, yay! I have a job, my kids, and lots of family and friends that support me... And damn what do you know... I can wipe my own ass too!
posted by The Black Widow at 1:07 PM
1 Comments:
Hey Im here for support girl, you can do better and for your kids too, he wont ever change. He needs to grow up!! I wish you well.
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